CALM DOWN

Was pretty mad and upset at my aunt who take care of me and also blame me for just a small issue, she want me to be perfect all the time,she teach me how to walk,eat,talk,sing and blah blah nicely . Everyone knew that she ''love'' me,and everyone blame on me cus i never listen to her .But i'm wondering is anyone ever try to ask me, are you ok with the way she teach you? do you feel hurt when your aunt blame on you? do you feel stress when ur aunt want you to be a perfect girl? are you happy? is that all what you want? so the answer is no ones ever ask me about it. I know what i want,i know how can i be fine, and i know what am i doing all the time. I'm a big big girl ain't a small small kid anymore. How i wish someone can understand me.My mum? heck no , she never care about me . My bro? they enjoy their life pretty much .My dad? sigh, i miss him =(
everyone wish that they are born in a freaking rich family so that they can buy whatever they want,they can go wherever they want to go.At the same time, is anyone think that will you be happy when you're super rich but no ones support you ,care you ,be your side when you need someone? I bet no ones....
Some peoples said ,erm should be mostly ,'MONEY CAN BUY EVERYTHING/MONEY MEANS EVERYTHING'' that was totally wrong .Money does't mean everything ,money can't buy the happiness/freedom.
I always think about i wanna run away from this house,get a new life or go back and stay with my mum. But too bad,i didn't i mean i would't dare to run away. WHY? i'll be super lonely and lifeless ,trust me.I mean seriously,my mum will never ever care about me. I used to run away from house when i was in elementary school if i'm not mistaken cus i hate my aunt so much that time.
And now i grow up, 17 years old teen, i flash back and think ... omg,i'm so childish ,why should i hate her who the one that  take care of me ,she teach me how to speak mandarin,write,everything. She is just like my mum cus my mum don't even teach me anything.
But guys, i'm a teen now right? i can't say that i'm big enough,mature enough ,but i have my own feeling . I know when is hurt,happy. Is my aunt understand me? No,she don't .
I would like to say thanks a million take care of me. May God can let my aunt try to understand about my feeling ,try to understand me. Know what am i talking about. May God bless me.

So anyway,thanks to my buddy who cheers me up,calm me down.xoxo,I'll be fine,everything will be fine. I'll be patient , never argue with my aunt anymore. i'll shut my mouth up.